Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Al-Youm (Today)

This Ramadan I am looking for strength to start over. I am waiting for a sign of a new beginning. I feel that I became so far from my religion. And for stupid pride and perfectionist reasons it is so hard to ask for help and to admit to being vulnerable and lonely. May be it is a wrong approach. May be I need to go reach out to the people and seek their company, but every time I think, now is not the right time, later when I am in a more presentable situation, I will go, I will meet people, inshaAllah make new friends, but for now I will wait it out and don't need to embarrass myself. Oh, Allah, please help me to return to your good way, please forgive me for my mistakes, and give me strength to fear only You and nothing else in this life.
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  1. jazainSeptember 9, 2009 at 6:20 PM

    salam sister

    why is it so many of us are so lonely these days? im in the same boat as you and am seeing so many lonely muslim women around this earth....i cannot help but wonder whats truly going on. i think one of the things that has truly helped me is having muslim sisters that i have met from blogging. im the only revert at my mosque and just so utterly alone at times. maybe im to blame, maybe im not....Allahlu alim...but we are with you. but i do understand you well.
    salam
    jana

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  2. dreamerSeptember 9, 2009 at 10:29 PM

    thank you sister. there are other converts here at our masjid, but all this time i have been waiting for things to be just right with me so i can go and introduce myself to all these people :) it looks like it is never going to be "just right" may be i should just go anyway...

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  3. MaldiparaterSeptember 25, 2009 at 2:44 PM

    In my opinion, it is a duty for born-Muslims like myself to go and help out our beloved brothers and sisters who have surrendered to the will of Allah.. that is what Islam expects... May Allah make everything easy for you sisters.. i really really really really wish I can help.. if u need any help .. please mail me, I am Callodus@hotmail.com.. May Allah Bless us all and Accept out Deeds.. of the Ramadan and all other months..

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